Heaven touched earth

“And you really are

Going to make me wait”

Every minute, every day

I have become a new person

In or out of your heart

It is a magical thing, this waking up

God weaves eternity into minutes

Each new day

He makes new magic

I find that gift in your voice

In your living story

And in mine

I try to pack more meaning

Into my love

Here at the middle of all things

When my beginning is so long ago

My future is unknown

Here I want to be close to you

And find that I cannot

Because you would not have

My breath against your cheek

Though I would hold breathless

To be close to you one more time

I remember the magic of October

Recognizing my uselessness at forgetting

The only man I have ever loved

I still my hands from words

Close my eyes against the fireworks

And give in to God’s stillness

My soul moves closer to yours

And it’s messy and needy and honest

God answers my aches slowly

Knowing I can’t handle the affirmation

In my compulsory retreat of smallness

Nursing the kind of faith

That can change lives and it’s not wrong

Even though I would have you now

My heart cannot take another break

So I live in a breathless world

In and among my memories of your love

Praying that the same God

Who was faithful in answering the one prayer

Will consent to answer another one

I have never stopped loving you

Soon I will be ready

But even God knows I’m

Not yet

© NP 10/22/12