Unnamed

“Not viable”
Words
Ringing over and over
In my ears
Bouncing off my brain
What did he mean?
I wanted him
And he was mine
All mine
I had waited years
For just the moment
When I would hold him in my arms
Planned
For the day
He would arrive
In my life way
I worked to be my best
Prepared my heart
Just for him
“Not viable”
The words seemed
A cruel joke
I was ready
For the whole world to know
That I had been blessed
Among women
For he would have
Been me and I him
“Not viable”
I lay on my bed
Waiting for the pain
That I knew would come
Waiting for the pain
That I knew had stopped
Tears fell in rivers
The medicine had no effect
On my heart
Alone
As I always was, am
“Not viable”
My body yielded to
Commands
Split into
My body, heart, soul
No cries
Heard
No flowers and smiles
Family or friends
No rejoicing
For those
“Not viable”
And
birthed
Still
© NP
11/11